My violin lessons have been going really well. Unfortunately, it's pointed out how much I was playing the violin WRONG! Yes, I was basically playing properly. But, my notes were off. Some notes I was playing flat instead of neutral. Others I was playing sharp when I shouldn't be. So, I made notations in all of the songs I usually play only to find that now I'm fumbling over the notes and playing them all improperly.
I feel like a failure. A fraud.
*sigh* I need to get over myself. I am a decent violin player. I just need to get used to playing certain notes properly. It's hard, but then again it's the violin. It's not intended to be easy. I picked this instrument in the 4th grade because I thought it would be challenging. It is. I just wish that my former teachers, way back when, had taught me not to make the mistakes I'm making now.
I need to tell myself the same thing I've told my children countless times: I'm not a failure, I just need practice.
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